commencing 29th september 2025
autumn! is! here!!!!!!
golly, where have we been. i’ve actually rested some (heavens smile down upon me). i gone and done all my admin. i’m feeling pretty on top of myself, though my nervous system is still a bit shot and i’m letting it recover - i actually had a craniosacral therapy appointment today for the first time in about a year and i find they are always really good for me getting some rest.
i don’t even know what to say this week. maybe just that i’m planning and recovering, starting to feel curious again. i read a lot of books because i was kind of getting my head out of my phone. i can see the light at the end of the tunnel of all the works on the house, with decorating coming in this week. but then again… maybe not. we’ll see. it’ll be nice when it’s all done for sure.
i’ve been sanding our dining table and waking up sneezing because of the dust in the house. you do it to yourself, you do, and that’s what really hurts. i did two gigs and i have to stop playing gigs in only socks because i stomp too hard and hurt my little feet. and that’s what really hurts. i’ve planned the bones of our last trips for the year: madrid in november, naples in december. i’d really like to plan some bigger stuff next year, but we’ll see how it all goes. also, i’ve been fixating on the idea of diy carbonation - because i drink so much pepsi max and i wonder: what if i didn’t? someone who drinks so much diy pepsi max instead, i guess.
fun things from september:
went to the non-existent brick lane curry festival, but discovered a nice curry house there
saw benjamin button: the musical with my dad, which was wholesome and expanded my worldview (aging backwards, who knew how traumatic and wholesome that could be? not me, i had literally never thought about it before. i also thought the short story was good!)
saw punch with my brother. it wasn’t really as good as dear england - that’s all i have to say on the matter.
had a large and spectacular allergic reaction instead of playing a gig, threw up in an uber man’s car (fortunately he had a bag for life, which i toted away full of my own puke like a big disgusto)
fun things from this week:
saw salome with my friend haroon. i thought it fucking sucked, a total clusterfuck from start to finish and in ‘start’ i include getting into the venue.
was narrowly rejected from soho labs’ playwright scheme, which has me deliberately saving for other playwriting courses!
played a couple of shows, they were as they always are
saw ohio; so deeply beautiful. i love the bengsons so much. seeing them live was stunning: the stories, the stage, the way they told them. something for everybody; i learned a lot about hereditary deafness, which tinged the way i see my father for sure.
sang at a wedding. it was alright, quite nice honestly, though i wonder if the rest of the group really cared for it (people feel funny about weddings in different ways and they weren’t shy of talking about it.)
went to a live d&b event with a symphony orchestra. honestly pretty fucking sick. nice to dance and be out in time to hit the colombian bakery on the way home
tried a cute new pizza place with will: carmela’s. a bit pricey but actually super good pizza, i really liked it a lot which i would not say if it were just a franco manca. they also gave away free matchbooks which is very charming of them.
all in all, september into october has been a mix of recovery, curiosity, and moments of delight. it feels like the edges of the year are slowly rounding out, and i’m finally sleeping, and quietly looking forward to the autumn. xxx